Long time No blog ey lol

well, alot has changed in... well its been almost a year since i last blogged. ALOT alot has changed.
I no longer live in Tuscaloosa and I am taking a break from school. Money ran a little bit short, which was a little bit devastating to me since I only have a year left before I would graduate. So now, I am living back at home with my madre and I am working for some great eye doctors. I am now single, and reading "Lady in Waiting" and trying to become the best woman I can while waiting for Mr. Right if he shall ever come along.
This is actually my second go around with this book, the first time I was dating someone so I was a little bit selfish and felt like it didn't apply to me. Now, that I am single.... and single by choice because I want to work on myself and my relationship with God, this book is almost like another bible for me haha It is teaching me how to be patient and how to be the virtuous woman of God that my future husband will love so much about me.
It took alot for me to get to this point in my life, where I am actually ok being single and chasing after God. I have, many times, been single and "SAID" that it was by choice to work on myself and get closer to my savior but it was always a lie. In the back of my head I was always secretly looking for the next guy to be in a relationship with. I NEVER ever picked someone worthy of everything I have to offer nor did I pick people who were going to bring me closer to the lord. I settled several times for guys that were the OPPOSITE of what I wanted and needed. At this point in my life, I had been so miserable with my choices that I ended any kind of relationship that could end up bringing me down again and I decided with my WHOLE HEART that I NEED JESUS more than ever before and I thirst for him and desire his best for me. Including the best man and husband he wants to give me. Which means that I have to do the work and follow Him before I can get the desires of my heart.

Its sad, because even now... as I say this....I've had my eye on this guy who is everything I would dream of in a guy. He is godly and funny. And a bunch of other things that I just cant get into right now. However, we are just friends and I would never dare tell him or make any moves ha cause NUMBER 1 he lives like 45 minutes away and I've never met him..we've had lots of time talking but I can't figure him out, and its kinda killing me. He has a million other friends that are girls but I cannnnnnot ask what kind of relationships they are, although there is one girl he seems to talk to more. After making my decision to let God be the mediator and schedule any divine appointments or crossing paths, I am just going to walk away from this guy and forget that I had any feelings for him at all. If God has plans for us, no matter the distance or destination we are in.... The lord will make it happen.

Alright, so that up to date with the LATEST news. I would be typing forever if I tried to update you with this entire year. lol

I missed blogging though. FOREALLLLL its like an outlet. Its not like anyone really reads my blog anyways