So today.... my x bf sent me a message on facebook.... which is stupid that it bothers me because he is something I have let go of... I have blocked him on my phone... I HAD him blocked on fb just to make it easier not to check up on him... then I unblocked him and i don't know why it still bothers me.... its not that I still want to be with him... Its the fact that.. everything we had... He just dropped me... wanted nothing to do with me.... and I didn't know what I did.... so i was wondering what the heck did I do to this boy to make Him not even want to be friends with me?
All he said in the fb message was basically how are you? I wanted to check to see you was!
and stupid me..... said miss you! but I do miss him! But its not like the miss him like i used to miss him... I miss him as a friend and in a friendly way... we always felt so comfortable around each other and goofed off and laughed alot! YET, he didn't know how to have a serious conversation without getting offensive or he just wouldnt talk about anything serious at all!
Which brings me to the question.... why can't he just leave me alone for about 6 months.....I would be fine if he would just leave me alone long enough to where when he does send me a message it doesn't get to me... I can't figure out why it gets to me though.... maybe its because its alway on HIS TIME.... if I send him a message just to check on him AS A FRIEND and try to start up the friendship... the friendship is a no go and I NEVER get a message back from him...nor does he answer or return phone calls! BUT when he messages me, I'm always on top of sending him a message back!
I don't have a problem with wanting to be with him anymore... because I want to be with a man of God who loves the Lord more than he loves himself...I had that soul tie broken... and I KNOW THAT GOD HaS SOMEONE MORE COMPATIBLE for me.... I guess my problem is that I just want to be friends with someone who obviously doesn't want to be friends with me! Which is fine... because number one... I am a great friend to have so its his loss and number 2... he was the one bringing me down and making me feel bad in the first place!
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I went through the exact same thing with my ex. She didn't want to continue what we had and be serious anymore, although all she wanted last year was for me to propose to her... RIGHT.
ReplyDeleteAnyway, a month or so after we broke up she started calling me and texting me and trying to add me on facebook (I had blocked her too). I eventually gave in and answered a text, and that led to us hooking up one more time and her misleading me for a week until she finally told me 'Well I don't want to be serious right now and I enjoy not having any responsibilities or anyone to answer to.' ...Yeah she really said that!
So that was the end of it, I blocked her again and haven't talked to her since.
It seems there are not only girls like this but guys too... They get off to the idea that you still care for them and its like they stay in touch just enough to try and keep you as an insurance policy. It's such a joke.
So... sorry for the rant, but I feel your pain and you're right; you're so much better off without the fool. Stay strong guh!